now that i don't see my dsem friends regularly, i've been feeling very disconnected.  the sky isn't as blue and birds don't sing as sweetly. 

i used to say that i would never work on sundays but for the past 5 months i've been working at least 1-2 sundays a month.  i've already booked 2 sundays in november. i'm weak! i need to plug into a small group asap.

elections are coming up and i think i might vote for mccain even though i'm thorougly confused by his choice of running mate.  for a decently educated girl i have a very weak reason for leaning towards mccain.  i figure, reagan did a good job in office, bush sr. did a good job in office; let's go for the old guy.  but what about the issues?  who has the better healthcare reform?  whose taxation plan is better for america? i don't know.  palin is a beautiful woman and i assume she must be capable or she wouldn't be where she is now.  but why do i see her more in the role of a first lady than president? if she was the wife of a candidate i might say 'she seems nice'. she values all human life, she supports her children even when they make really dumb mistakes, she's christian, she can balance politics and family, and she's charming. but as a potential vp, those same qualities work against her: she's too soft, she can't control her own kids, she turns off some people with her religion, she has no time for politics because she's got a big family, and her perkiness can be a little annoying.  hmmm...

and how about prop 8?  i shocked some people by saying i was against it.  i still think homosexuality is a sin. sorry if that offends anyone.  but i do.  but i think all sins are the same. sin is sin. we all sin. when 2 people proclaim that they are in LOVE and they want to get married should the government stand in the way?  if the couple were friends of mine or family, i would try really hard to dissuade them on moral/biblical grounds but what good does it do to oppose the marriage to my deathbed?  i'd still oppose the sin, but i believe more good could come out of a heart of love than a bitter, judgemental one.  i'm gonna open up another can of worms by saying that i think homosexuality (or other related lifestyles)  is mostly environmental factors anyway so let's raise good wholesome God fearing, God loving families and see what happens.

i'm getting married next year.  people ask me 'how did you know that he was the one?' and it's funny but it's true what they say.  you just know.  i was trying to explain to my coworker how i was genuinely happy and whole on my own but when j came into my life i felt like we were just supposed to be a set. like God had brought us together and we would live happily ever after together.  and my coworker said, 'like shoes. you found your mate.' and i had to reply 'you know what?  yes.  exactly.  like shoes. i found my mate.'

manilajones, i've been having intense dreams lately too!  it's probably because of the change from summer to fall.  you enjoy this time of year, but it makes me sad when the sun starts setting earlier.

right after the olympics, i dreamt that i won a gold medal in a race! i ran around the four crosswalks of an intersection the fastest! first there was a false start so one athlete got eliminated. but there were still about 15 of us left.  i ran as fast as i could and won. so random. i was really happy when i woke up.

the other night i dreamt that a little pincher bug on the floor suddenly morphed into this HUGE ant (like 12 inches) with a crab like shell and sprung itself onto my right ear and shoulder.  i was so startled i couldn't even scream.  my mom ran in and tore it off of me.  mutilated monster ant parts were flung to the ground with her bare hands. my mom is fearless.